地铁上没抢到顺着开的座位，我坐反方向，过了两站胃里就有点晃，老海员坐个地铁倒不自在，说出去要被人笑。抬头看车厢里不动的扶手，比盯着窗外舒服些。到站我没急着上扶梯，在边上站了一小会，凉气吹着额头，人就慢慢定下来。后来走到食堂，闻见烧菜又饿了，一碗饭吃得很安稳。身体这东西蛮奇怪，几十年适应过的摇晃都过去了，现在几站路也要跟我商量。下次有得选，还是坐顺着开的，不跟它争。

My husband asked whether we could have one Sunday morning without arranging everything around my long run, and I was immediately defensive. I had the whole explanation ready about the ultra and the weeks left, but he wasn't saying the race didn't matter. He wanted us to eat breakfast together without somebody checking the time. Felt a bit hurt that he asked, then guilty for being hurt, which is a thoroughly unhelpful combination. I love that he supports my running, and perhaps I've started treating that support as automatic. We agreed on a morning that works. I'm pleased about it, though a small, unreasonable part of me is still counting the kilometres I'll have to move.

J'ai sorti le husky sans caméra et il a décidé qu'on ferait toute la promenade à son rythme, donc vite entre deux poteaux pis quinze minutes devant une touffe d'herbe. J'avais encore le cou raide du mariage, mais sans les boîtiers qui cognent devant moi je marchais plus droit. Il faisait frais au bord de la rivière et je sentais mes joues chauffer en avançant. À la maison je me suis assise pour enlever mes souliers, le chien a posé sa tête sur mon genou comme si on venait de traverser la province. J'étais pas mal dans le même état. J'avais faim, les mains froides, pis vraiment pas envie d'ouvrir tout de suite l'ordinateur.

kakak nelpon dari malang terus nanya kamarnya masih rapi nggak, jelas aku jawab rapi padahal celana ada di kursi sama satu piring di bawah meja, dia ketawa kayak udah lihat sendiri dan aku ikut ketawa, lumayan kangen sih sama orang yang bisa ganggu tanpa harus mikir jawab apa, habis telepon rumah jadi sepi lagi walau mama masih ngomong sama pembeli di depan freezer, tadi mau kirim foto cupang baru tapi batal karena belum ada namanya, akhirnya kirim juga, kakak bilang mirip bapak kalau lagi serius nonton balapan, ya sudah sekarang tiap lihat ikannya aku ketawa sendiri

Opened a sample page from the coordinator course and got stuck on a question I could probably answer out loud in somebody's kitchen. On paper it had three answers that all sounded respectable and one word in each that changed the meaning. I read too fast because I wanted proof that I could still study, then had to go back. Wrote the situation in my own words and it became clearer. That doesn't mean the whole course will be easy, but it also doesn't mean I've forgotten how to think because a page looks formal. I'm keeping the question beside my notebook to try again tomorrow without the answer showing. My daughter says that's what she does. She looked pleased to be the one giving instructions.

The invitation proof is on the table and I keep finding things I would change even though the spacing is right. She likes the type she picked. I like the other one because the small letters are easier to read, but nobody is going to read our wedding invitation from across a room. That is what she said. I made both versions so we could compare them on paper instead of the screen. Now I think hers may be right for this. I have looked at it too long to tell. At the shop I would ask the customer which one they wanted. Here I am also the customer. That makes it harder.

Took the dog out without a coat because there was a bit of blue sky. An experienced Irish woman, forty years at it. Within ten minutes the wind was coming straight through my jumper and my fingers were too stiff to open the bag for him. Once we got moving properly I warmed up, though. The heavy feeling in my legs eased and I went the longer way past the school, which surprised the dog nearly as much as me. Home to tea with both hands round the mug. Himself had the heating on and was sitting in his T-shirt. Grand for some. My face is still warm now and the rest of me has finally caught up.

A colleague thanked the whole team for a fix I'd spent most of the afternoon untangling, and I was irritated. There, no noble interpretation needed. It was a team job, someone else had taken the original call, but I wanted my part seen too. I said nothing at the time, then gave my husband the extended version over dinner. He asked whether I wanted a medal or simply my name in the email. The second, actually. I can be pleased that the user is working again and still think the credit was vague. By bedtime I wasn't angry, just slightly embarrassed by how much airtime I'd given a two-line message.

九州の拠点の話を聞くたびに、今より余裕のある生活を想像する。しかし具体的な仕事の内容も、家族がどうしたいかも聞かないまま、勝手に良い条件を並べている。調達先の話なら、確認できていない数字をこうして採用することはない。転勤したいと決めたわけではないが、ただの空想にしておけば今の不満を少しやり過ごせる、という便利さがあるのだと思う。今日はまず、以前あちらにいた同僚の名前だけメモした。話を聞くなら噂の続きではなく、帰る時間や担当の範囲を聞きたい。妻に相談する前に結論を出す必要はない。むしろ毎回そこまで一人で考えようとして、何も言わなくなっている。

অফিস থেকে ফেরার পর আজ ঘাড়ের পেছনে টান ছিল। পুরোনো বালাম বই নামাতে গিয়ে বেশ কিছুক্ষণ মাথা উঁচু করে থাকতে হয়েছে। বাসায় চেয়ারে বসে আবার খাতা খুলতে যাচ্ছিলাম, তার আগে জামা বদলে বারান্দায় দাঁড়ালাম। চোখে ঠান্ডা পানি দেওয়ায় জ্বালাটা কমেছে। নিচে ছেলেরা খেলছিল, দূরে তাকিয়ে থাকতে ভালো লাগল। ঘরের বাতাসে সেলাইয়ের কাপড়ের গন্ধ। চা আসার পর বসেছি, কিন্তু খাতা সঙ্গে সঙ্গে খুলি নাই। কাপের গরম হাতের তালুতে লাগছিল। শরীরের এই সামান্য আরামগুলো লিখে রাখার অভ্যাস নেই। সাধারণত সমস্যা হলেই শুধু লেখা হয়। আজ টান ছিল, পরে কমেছে, এটুকুও নথিভুক্ত থাক।