Son wanted to stay at his dad's an extra night for a birthday thing. Nothing wrong with that but I got annoyed straight away. Asked when it was decided, who was collecting him, all the questions. He said he only just asked. Felt bad after. I had bought food for us and was looking forward to him being here, not just bothered about the plan. Didn't say that at first. Texted later that it was okay and we could have our dinner the next night. Still disappointed. Dont want him thinking he has to make both houses happy every time he wants to do something.

List ran late and I drank coffee instead of eating at the usual time. Stomach felt sour by the train home. Should have eaten the sandwich in bag, it was there all day. Jaw tight too. I noticed because I was chewing nothing and teeth still pressed together. At home changed clothes and ate something plain. Sat with feet up, no phone for a bit. Head still sore but not as bad. Son asked if I was sick. Said just a long day. He put the television quieter without asking again. That helped. Went to bed early but took a while to stop moving my shoulders up.

Keep going over an order from work though it was checked and correct. Can remember the wording but then wonder if remembering is same as knowing. It was signed. The note matches. There is no new thing to check, just me wanting to check again. Wrote that down because the counsellor said to write what actually happened. Actual thing is nothing went wrong. Doesn't feel finished when I say it like that. I have put the work bag by the door and made tomorrow's lunch. Same worry still there, quieter now. Can't do anything useful with it tonight.