the barista I've been seeing kept a seat for me at their mate's birthday and introduced me like obviously everyone already knew who i was, which was heaps nice but also made me suddenly not know where to put my face lol. i'd been thinking i'd just drop in and maybe leave early if it was awkward, then someone asked about the dumpling place and i stayed telling them about Auntie for ages. felt properly included, not like somebody had brought an extra person they needed to entertain. was still smiling on the tram home and then mum rang asking what i was happy about and i said oh nothing much, good night

Auntie asked whether i'd thought about the full time contract and i said yep which is technically true, i've thought about it every time i open the drawer and see it. trying to work out what would actually change because i already turn up most days and know when the deliveries come and who needs the good tongs. mum started talking about long term plans but i'm mostly wondering if i could ask for the same day off each week, that would be pretty good. then i'd know when to make plans instead of waiting for everyone else's. haven't asked yet, feels like asking means i've already decided, which maybe i have a bit

the housemate's cat slept on my feet again and i woke up so warm i thought someone had finally fixed my window lol then moved and realised nope still freezing out there, stayed curled up under the doona with this ridiculous heavy cat who apparently weighs twice as much when asleep. my hands were a bit dry when i finally got up so i remembered the cream Auntie gave me and then couldn't open the coffee jar because everything was slippery, very glamorous start. feet actually feel good today, not that throb after a long shift, might walk to the tram instead of doing my usual last minute sprint with half a piece of toast